National Poetry Month ~ GRAND FINALE ~ with Poet Curtis Ray Bizelli

 

April is #NationalPoetryMonth. I've had over 200 poems published and garnered many awards since I was a child! I have NOT written any in OVER A DECADE, but I'm sharing my old ones now!!! 

All poems written 2007 & prior ... 

 

 

The Earth Is Shaking

The earth is shaking
My mind is breaking
I don’t know where to go
Will it be where the cold wind blows
There’s a girl, my heart she’s taking
Shaking and Breaking
I don’t know where to go
Can I come over please?
I’m pleading and begging
Looking up from my knees
Come and get me please
I don’t know where to go
May it be where that damned wind blows
Will it be somewhere down below
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know where to go

My body is shaking
My heart is breaking
Her heart, I am taking
My Own Will, forsaking 

When I'm Strong

You asked me if I was ok

if I ever thought about you still

and I said that I'm fine

Just glad to see your smile shine

But …..

deep down inside, baby, after I pop this pill

Everything is shady

and I am blue,

oh baby, baby … how I’m missing you

So … when I'm Strong ...

I'll give you the answer that's real

When I'm Strong...

I'll tell you how I really feel

When I'm Strong

I'll think about you again

When I'm Strong

I'll let you back in

… and I’ll get you to love me all over again

Oh baby, baby … how I’m missing you

Oh, my sweet little darling, oh how I’m missing you

One day I’ll give in

Alcoholism

I wake up, and my world has changed

I feel nothing but pity for myself

My mind is deranged

A night of fun and laughter

Turned into a day of sickness and sorrow

I promise myself I’ll never put the bottle to my mouth again

But I still do…tomorrow, tomorrow, and tomorrow

I wake up, and my world has changed

I feel nothing but pity for myself

My mind is deranged 

 

A Shoulder To Cry On

The branch bent over
Gently touching the willow
Weeping they met
In soft unison, caressing
Their tears flowing in a silent stream
Down the valley of loved ones parted 

If I Belong

Everything I’ve known is wrong
I no longer belong
Never Did, in reality
Now, I can somewhat see
My imagination has ran strong
For I don’t know how long
But now I know
that I don’t know
If I really belong 

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Praising & Glorifying God for Another Year Alive & Sober ...

Hurray! I made it to 38 years young, and 7 years sober by the Grace of God!!!  

7 years ago, before a major encounter with GOD ALMIGHTY! I was lost in the bottle. I tried over and over and couldn't do it alone! I lost count at over 15-20 locked up in (short-term) rehabs and mental institutions by the age of 30! When I was 31, a Pastor of mine laid hands on me (in my living room while I was drunk), and I had my first VERY REAL experience WITH THE HOLY GHOST! I haven't been the same since! I followed up with 10 months of intensive, longterm rehab, but nonetheless it was GOD that really did it for me! Even when I was lost in the bottle (and hooked on Benzo Anxiety Meds), I never gave up calling out to Him, to save me from the addiction (and lifestyle that I lived). I just couldn't kick it no matter how much I tried over and over! 

I had so many people praying for me, in whom I eternally grateful for!!! 

I'm not where I want to be, but I THANK GOD I'M NOT WHERE I USED TO BE!!!

Today I Am 37 Years Old and The Old Man Is Officially Six-Feet Under

Yes! Today is my Birthday. I turned 37 today, having been born in 1984 like the Guerrilla Journalist, James O'Keefe (shoutouts Brother ... love what you do!) ... 

But, anyway, it's NOT JUST my BDay. It's also another very important anniversary. I have also been 6 years sober as of today by the Grace of God Almighty! 

I wish to share this emotional video with you from my YT Channel. I used to watch this while I was drinking. I would just cry out to God. I had the desire to stop drinking, but I didn't have the power within me. I never gave up this HOPE however. It was always end me to keep trying. 

 

I lost everything. I was so lost in the booze I was drinking nearly a gallon of hard liquor by myself PER DAY! I was admitted to Behavioral Units & Short Term Rehabs OVER 20 TIMES. I lost count! I just couldn't shake it. 

I got mixed up in the dark side of life, and looking back, I know God was definitely looking out for me every step of the way. It took complete surrender and a mighty touch from The Holy Ghost. 

My Pastor laid hands on me and I fell out in The Spirit. It was the first time this had ever happened to me. Even though I had been a Christian Believer most of my life, I never really experienced the Power of God like this before that day! It made a dramatic impact on me, and I believe HE began transforming me on the inside going forth until a couple of months later I decided to go to a long term facility for the first time. 

It was like Boot Camp for 10 months with intensive behavioral therapy. 

People have always told me that I'm very intelligent but recently also very wise for my age. I believe this is cause I've faced so many struggles and already conquered so many demons in my life. The more trials you face, the more lessons you will learn. 

Regardless, I give ALL GLORY TO GOD IN EVERYTHING I DO AND RESOLVE TO HOLD NOTHING BACK!!

Today, I use my gifts from God to bless others with my Independent Media Operation & Prophetic End Times Ministry: ETERNAL AFFAIRS MEDIA

As of today, I'm available for interviews.  

The best ways of contacting me are via this link: 

https://confide.curtbizelli.com

or on Skype at 'THE1CBIZ' 

or you can email me at: WatchmanCBiz(at)pm.me

God bless You. Never Give Up.